Heart to Heart 1: The Essential Principles of Mahamudra
When Lalita was teaching me visualizations, her energy was projected onto me and I acquired, right from the first transmissions on, the power to instantly see the images that she was describing to me. . . . The transmission took place by touch, one hand on the heart, by the eyes, and by words. In the exact order indicated by Abhinavagupta.
As preliminary practices for the realization of Mahamudra, the visualizations and the yoga of the lineage are very important because they spatialize the body, the mind, and the emotions. They allow you to enjoy a relaxed body of light, a mind that is in its natural state: silent and as open as space, plus emotions that are fluid and quick, not having to be controlled or filtered. Everything can come about in the natural state: no more fear, no goal to reach, no projection, no hope because at every moment you are fulfilled. Presence shows you that you never lack anything.
“This morning I’m going to transmit Kumari’s visualization to you. . . . Your eyes in mine! The breath slow and deep without the slightest variation in rhythm and intensity. Heart to heart!
“You are seated on a flat, round rock in the middle of a lake. Your sacrum is in contact with the cool water. The energy of the water goes up your spine and diffuses into your whole body. In order to balance the masculine energy and the feminine energy and become Bhairava / Bhairavi visualize yourself as a woman. Starting with the perineum, very cool, a yoni opens, a uterus opens. Your heart vibrates and creates breasts. You are identical with me. The subtle feminine vibration spreads through all your cells. You are transforming yourself - I see it in your eyes.
“A beautiful night, a deep blue sky. You see the shore of the lake. A ruby appears, floating in space. You contemplate it, in awe.
“Suddenly the ruby becomes the very beautiful goddess Kumari with a body of transparent rubies. I am Kumari. My organs, my muscles, my bones, my tendons, all the fluids of my body are a beautiful transparent red. I begin walking on the water and I dance the Tandava as I approach you.
“I come to the flat rock and I sit facing you. The red energy begins to invade your body and your organs. Your brain is bathed in the ruby power. A single color. Total presence.
“I join my delicate hands together, placing them on your navel. My breath enters into you. You open totally, without fear, muscles relaxed. My hands enter into you very gently. They surround your uterus and take it out of your body. I place it in the cool water of the lake. See how it distends, taking on marvelous, light colors. No memory remains. It has just come into form. It finds once again its original state.
“My hands come back inside your body. My hands take out your yoni and your ovaries and place them in the cool water. They return once again to their original state with delicious colors. The past dissolves. Innocence is found again.
“I continue to take out organs one after the other. You see all these organs floating and freeing themselves in happiness.
“Now I remove your diaphragm which is going to free up your breath, your lungs, and your heart. They all throb and beat in the water’s coolness. They free themselves from the past, finding once again the delicacy and color of the organs of a newborn child.
“Moving further up, I take out your tongue, your eyes, finally your brain and place them in the water. They too find this peaceful, colored state. Your brain lets go like a handful of oatmeal thrown into boiling water. It is shot through with rainbows. No more memory, no more projections, no more expectations. It is perfect, fulfilled and spacious. Your eyes have not yet seen anything of the world. They are open wide, innocent.
“Contemplate the beauty of your organs and feel the spatiality of your body bathed in this magnificent red light. Your body is nothing but space. It is no different from mine. There is only one body, which is the cosmos.
“I take your uterus from the water and put it back in your body. What coolness! What wisdom! Little by little I replace the other organs and you begin to feel a new communication among them, an enchantment, a subtle quivering that increases as I fill your body with organic space. This is the key to the wonderment. Inner beauty!
“Even when the brain is put back in place it is nothing other than the orgasmic union of the body with the cosmos. You are the cosmos but your thinking mind does not say, ‘I am the cosmos’.”
Lalita slides onto my legs and heart to heart, belly to belly, lips to lips, in a single look she penetrates me. Joined in flamboyance, beyond time. Then she gets up suddenly, begins dancing on the waves, moving away and flowing into the ruby that is floating above the shore of the lake.
When the vision fades, I find myself still opposite her. Her face is illuminated with a light smile. During the transmissions, totally taken by her magic, I never asked any questions. I drank in the energy as the most precious of nectars. Her words incised themselves into me. I saw them as multiple lingams emerging from yonis, as if from sacred spaces, from invisible temples. No doubt it was this fascination that made her smile. The perfume of her body intoxicated me. I had the impression of moving through a garden of jasmine and roses. I had no doubt that the teaching was transmitted also through the olfactory sense, an ability that developed as I visualized myself as a woman, as if the sensory range extended to infinity. . . .